November 12, 2010
Freshly damaged and newly hurt,
Being alone isn't something he's used to,
Hiding behind a wall isn't something he's used to,
However it is his recent found defense.
Relationships with family and friends become stronger,
While all else remains a mystery,
All else except that wall which stands strong,
And the desire to find himself again.
Posted by Cammeron Alekzandra.
November 12, 2010
In an alternate life lies the possibility that she can know him, She sits back and entertains the thought,
She is a stupid woman for doing so,
For he is the unfamiliar,
Not wanting or understanding these desires,
All of this frightens her,
She tries not to...but still does,
What a stupid woman,
She does not let reality have the chance to alter her perspective of him,
It has happened in the past but won't be allowed this time,
Whatever it is-she wants it to vacate,
Her thoughts cannot be explored,
Her f... Continue reading...
Posted by Cammeron Alekzandra.
November 12, 2010
Thinking of him she feels nothing, She never knew nothing felt so good,
Until his facade became transparent,
She couldn't be freed from his chains,
With her new found freedom she smiles,
For nothing has ever made her happier,
And if nothing else is taken from the experience,
She has walked away smarter and stronger
Leaving nothing behind,
Despite all of the negative she endured because of her love for him,
She can still thank him,
Now she is able to wake with a smile on her face,
And if he hadn't have ... Continue reading...
Posted by Cammeron Alekzandra.
September 12, 2010
Present occurances lead me to re-visit those of my past With hopes to reveal new answers And thoughts of becoming better in the future
Better at protecting myself
Better at letting myself heal
Learning that trust isn't just given
It has to be earned
Learning that words can only be found in the shadow of actions
Now understanding when to let go, ignore or forgive
Present occurrences lead me to place all of this in front of me
Bringing awareness
Forcing decisions
And lining up my past Continue reading...
Posted by Cammeron Alekzandra. Posted In : poetry
September 11, 2010
As a friend becomes a stranger I ask myself a million questions
A million questions that will remain unanswered
A situation that I will never understand
As a friend becomes a stranger
I learn lessons that are harsh and new
These lessons will change me for the better
Sometimes change is desperately needed
As this friend becomes a stranger
All I can do is shake my head in disappointment
And know that with time things will get easier
Even though it's just never easy
When a friend becomes a stranger
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Posted by Cammeron Alekzandra.
September 11, 2010
It's only until recent That I look at you and wonder
I wonder what you're holding back
I wonder why that uneasy feeling doesn't disappear
Sometimes I look at you and wonder if you're happy
If you've made the right decision
Or if you're harboring regrets
Sometimes I wonder if you adore me the way I do you
Or if it has worn off
And I wonder if I'm as desirable to you as I once was
I wonder if all of this is created from nothing
If I'm just unsure of your feelings
Sometimes over-analyzation can prove to be ... Continue reading...
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September 11, 2010
I can still smell you on my skin It's a reminder of how you make me weak
And the butterflies I feel when we touch
When you're near I can't resist
I try not to reveal our secret
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Posted by Cammeron Alekzandra. Posted In : poetry
September 11, 2010
For years he had something This something was never perfect
And it was more than difficult at times
However- it was his
But his expression was filtered
And his thoughts were accusing
Never giving himself fully
Despite an unyielding acceptance
In time that something began to wear down
And instead of being his something
She felt completely like nothing
And that's when she began to fade
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Posted by Cammeron Alekzandra.
September 11, 2010
She's just a girl One who is unsure and self-doubting
No stranger to mistakes
This girl sometimes loses sight of things
Including her intended destination
Desensitized to a kind of pain
After all, she is just a girl
One who has learned the value of protection
Too quick to become defensive
But still has a hard time building a wall
This girl is regretfully sensitive
Lacking the ability to suppress her expression
Whether it is meant or not
Despite her environment and consequences
Loves and is heartbroken fa... Continue reading...
Posted by Cammeron Alekzandra. Posted In : poetry
September 11, 2010
She views the world a little different each day With each new experience she obtains knowledge Knowledge of herself and those around her
Understanding her fit-
A square peg through a round hole
Like the figures in her paintings
Awkward and often misunderstood
It's what she expects
Continuing to view the world with ever changing eyes
Wondering when her picture will become a little less awkward
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Posted by Cammeron Alekzandra. Posted In : poetry
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